A Year with Questions- Part 4

Sometimes you will get answers, but they aren’t the ones you were expecting. The answers also may not have a clear solution linked to them. What happens next is often unknown. Possibly, there will be a need to accept that you may have to live a life different than you intended. That is a tough pill to swallow.

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.” Arnold Schwarzenegger.       Photocredit- Photoartoftec

The events of last week are a blur. I feel like I went to hell and back in the form of several visits to Hershey, Pennsylvania. I arrived with feelings of hope and came home in pain and with confusion.


The test that was supposed to show a fixable problem showed nothing. A second test showed a problem that can’t be fixed. It left me feeling sicker physically than I ever had in my life. Emotionally, I have yet to fully process it.   The need to adapt and adjust will have to occur.  There is no other option.

At some point, I will write the whole story out- but this is it for now.

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ You must do the thing you think you cannot do.” – Eleanor Roosevelt Photocredit- Alex Anderson

10 thoughts on “A Year with Questions- Part 4

  1. Thank you for sharing. Things don’t always go as we’d like or as we’d expected. But know, there is nothing you can go through without support. You can face whatever challenge comes your way. Hope to read the full update soon! Big hugs! 🙂

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    1. Thanks Ana! I’ll be okay. It’s just been a lot. I’ll update with a blog post or by email eventually.

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      1. I know, I know exactly what you mean! It’s overwhelming, and stressful and scary and exhausting, everything. My anxiety sky rockets in what is supposed to be such a joyous time of year, my symptoms also make a very grand entrance and it’s just a mess! I was a mess this weekend, the larger crowds, the noise, it all make me physically sick.
        And you’re absolutely right dearest friend, you WILL be OK! Take your time, baby steps! 🙂

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      2. You are a rock star & inspire me! I’ll email you soon!

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  2. Thank you, likewise. You are facing these challenges face on. Great! 😊🙏🏽

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  3. I’m sorry you didn’t receive good news! 😦 The anger/frustration will eventually pass, but the feelings are totally understandable. Best wishes as you work through it.

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    1. Thank you! I appreciate the well wishes!


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